Still Learning

I'm fighting this...
But I doubt I'll win.
Its either I sink,
Or learn to swim.

But learning takes time,
And time I do not have.
Will I start to drown?
And will there be a hand to grasp?

I'm always wanting what I cannot have...
But this is different, this is love.
Will I receive him?
Can I fly to him like a dove?

Life has made me ugly...
Life has made me mad...
Life has made me obscene...
But Love has made me glad.